And just when I thought the shadows had engulfed me...

Baby, I wanna die wearing our wedding ring and holding your hand. You are my love, only you. I just want to spend my whole life with you.

- M.P.S.R.

I was, again, overwhelmed with serenity.
As long as he stays, then I'm okay.

It's the 23rd day of December; and as always, the blues are creeping up on me.

They say, people continue to want what they don't have. And, are unhappy with what they do have.

It's not always the case. But, I CAN PERFECTLY RELATE.

I have always wanted a different family. You may think that this is very cruel or disrespectful of me. I can never defend myself and the only way to understand me, just like the way to understand everything, is to picture yourself in my shoes.

So, I want a different family. This could be interchanged with, I do not like my family. It's so twisted that I can't even explain it sensibly.

It pains my heart, really. I shouldn't hate the people that I was born with. This hate is wrong in all angles, but how can I say that what I feel is wrong if it is what I feel? How can I explain that I didn't choose to feel this way? That it was them who caused this negative feeling to blossom within me? How can hating be so wrong?

It's Christmas. This really sucks.


Let me just clarify two simple facts:

1. No Edward Cullen could ever replace my Paulo Roxas.
   
2. And, I'M IRREVOCABLY IN LOVE WITH MARLO PAULO SALANDANAN ROXAS!!!
   

A normal guy would say: "I love you, baby."
Edward Cullen would say: “You are my life now.”
Pipao would say: "You are the single most pure delight in my life."

You're the most important person in my world, baby. I'm breathing to make you happy.I love you. You are my princess... my queen... my life... my love...

- 25 August 2008

Normal guy would say: “I think I'm falling for you”
Edward Cullen would say: “The Lion fell in Love with the Lamb”
Pipao would say: "The girl I secretly stare at despite of an upcoming exam, she's the love of my life even before we started to be friends."

If you died, a normal guy would find another.
If you died, Edward would kill himself cause life without you isn’t worth living.
If I died, Pipao would say: "Death can try but it won't get far and wouldn't make a difference coz I belong to you, you are my heaven."

I just want you to know that if I'm not going to be with you, then I shouldn't be with anyone else at all, coz then I would be lying to myself. Coz you're the one I want, you're the one I love, and you're the one for me.

18 March 2008

As you left the house a normal guy would say: “Bye. See ya!”
As you left the house, Edward Cullen would say: “Come back to me love”
As I leave the house, Pipao would say: "I hate parting ways with you. Coz it isn't right when we're not together."

As you come back to the house, a normal guy would be watching TV and wouldn’t even notice.
As you come back to the house, Edward Cullen would be welcoming you by playing the piano with a song just for you.
As I come back to the house, Pipao would be waiting outside, smiling, and would open the gate for me.

A normal guy would wait for you to make him breakfast.
Edward Cullen would make you breakfast everyday.
Pipao would insist that we live in a single condo just so he could prep me food, because he's afraid I might die of hunger.

While you were both out for dinner, a normal guy wouldn’t keep his eyes off the sexy waitress.
Edward Cullen wouldn’t even notice the waitress was a female.
Pipao wouldn't also notice but Aileen would point the waitress at him, and they would evaluate her together.

I doubt if there will be any girl who would catch my attention. Baby, you're the most beautiful thing I ever laid my eyes on from head to feet, inside and out. You blow me away.

- 09 September 2008

A normal guy while driving would keep one hand on the wheel and one hand on the radio.
Edward Cullen while driving would keep one hand on the wheel and the other attached to yours.
Pipao while driving would keep one hand on the wheel and the other attached to mine or around my shoulders.

While far apart in different places, a normal guy would say: “I miss you”
While far apart in different places, Edward Cullen would say: “It’s like you've taken half myself with you”
While far apart in different places, Pipao would say: "I don't know how I could go through a day without you."

A normal guy wouldn’t care or notice if you had nightmares.
Edward Cullen would sing until your nightmares went away.
Pipao would stay up all night and hug me until my heart stops hurting.

I wouldn't wait for the end of the world to keep you close to me. Come to think of it. I want you near me when the roosters start crowing or when the sun decides to come up or come down. I want you here every second of every day.

I want to stand in the aisle and wait for my beautiful baby there :) :*

- 010509 -

... just dont forget to stare at the stars at night
coz somewhere in Manila, you're boyfriend is staring at the same stars :*

- 121308 -

Baby, I love you still more than anything else in this world
and the day that I will stop loving you will never come -
that is a promise I will never break.

I am your soulmate and I will be your love forever and ever.

- 101908 -